life…one day at a time
Jim June 25th, 2010
as the car rolled i knew it must be my time to die. upside down and hanging from my seatbelt, i was certain i had sustained fatal injuries. at first i panicked. i was trapped, left for dead. the other car was on fire. how long before mine would be? i couldn’t breathe. i didn’t want to suffocate or burn to death. but th…en i was calmed. it was dark. i was alone. no one had yet arrived on the scene. it was just me trapped in the darkness and waiting to die. in my heart i came to peace with it. i entered deep into myself and let the whole world go and everyone in it that i loved. i cried. i said goodbye and somehow it was okay. i was ready to die. but then i heard a voice in the darkness, “Are you okay down there?”
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” suddenly a face appeared. a fireman was laying on the ground next to the car looking through the window. we met eyes and he said confidently, “We’re going to get you out.” i turned my head when he shattered the glass of the window. he reached in and i grabbed his arms, pulling myself toward the opening. i slid through …the window and came out across his body. for a few moments i just layed there. lights flashing, sirens screaming, people shouting, commotion all around…but inside my head it became totally quiet and still. what is this space…this place…that can be so still when everything about me is in chaos?”
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“**CNN BREAKING NEWS** (June 10, Nashville) NASHVILLE MAN DRIVES THERAPIST TO EARLY RETIREMENT. Today outside her office, Julie Clawson, LCP announced it was necessary that she shut down her therapy practice and run for the hills after suffering great emotional trauma from a 90-minute session with Nashville man Jim Palm…er. Bringing an end to 16 years of private practice, Clawson broke down before reporters, “If people in our world are that screwed up, I simply can’t do this anymore. I can’t take it!!!!” Reports indicate that Jim Palmer was so far off the fairway of mental health that Clawson was suddenly pushed over the edge by his relentless barrage of issues including: codependency (like, it was SO bad); all kinds of messed up insecurities, fears, and irrational thinking; two recent near-death experiences; running addiction; a twisted fascination with the Bee Gees and Forrest Gump videos, and just a whole bunch of other super unhealthy stuff. Palmer issued this statement, “I take complete 100% responsibility. All I wanted was for her to be happy.”
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The Jim Palmer Easy Fitness Guide:
Fitness Level Good: I can wake up any day and run 26.2 miles.
Fitness Level Better: I can wake up any day and run 26.2 miles and do it again the next day.
Fitness Level Best: I can run 26.2 miles 5 out of 7 days.
Fitness Level Elite: I once knew what running 26.2 miles was like.
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sometimes it’s just best to jump.
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***CNN Headlines*** [June 16] Nashville Man Discovers Personal Boundaries. CNN is reporting that at 11:42 CST, Jim Palmer of Nashville, TN finally figured out he’s supposed to have personal boundaries. CNN attained an audio portion from the session, “Wait a minute! You mean to tell me that just because a person pushes …themselves into my life to manipulate, use and control me, I actually don’t have to let them???” This moment of realization came on the heels of a very long and exhausting therapy session where Palmer also discovered” he had legitimate desires and needs; wasn’t soley responsible for the happiness and wellbeing of all sentient beings; that it was okay to say “no;” and that he has an independent existence apart from the expectations of others. Palmer forfeited an earlier opportunity to learn these very lessons after giving away his newly-purchased copy of Codependent No More, attempting to help a hurting friend who he figured needed the book more than he did. Palmer is believed to be resting comfortably in his Nashville home where he is watching Kobe Bryant videos and wondering if he will be abandoned by the entire human race and left in total darkness if he puts up a boundary.
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sometimes love hurts….
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sometimes i wish there was a getaway car….
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People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel
your pain.
- Jim Morrison
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***CNN ALERT*** NASHVILLE MAN HELD HOSTAGE BY HIS EGO. This morning at 8:17 CST Nashville man, Jim Palmer, called 9-1-1 reporting that he had been taken hostage by his EGO. The incident took place while Palmer was running on the Nashville greenway. CNN has learned that while Palmer was running some asshole appearing to… be 10 years his junior, ran past him. Palmer reasoned it out by remembering that he recently suffered significant injuries in two near-death experiences and it was okay to run a slower pace in an effort to sensibly build back to his previous level of endurance. Palmer told 9-1-1 operator that immediately following that rational thought he was seized and held hostage by his Ego, telling him, “What are you thinking Palmer?! I don’t care how many cracked ribs you have!! You know the rules and rule #1 is NO ONE passes you on the greenway (period!). You’re just gonna let wonderboy run away like that??? You’re a frickin embarassment to ultra runners worldwide. Get your ass in gear and let’s go!!! Catch him!” Under diress, Palmer was coerced into picking up his stride and closed the distance between them. He caught wonderboy and matched his pace, staying right behind him. Both of them finished together. Palmer was delighted to see that wonderboy had finished his run because he was continuing on, which made the additional point that he could run faster AND further. His Ego failed to mention how difficult it would be running the next four miles back after exerting so much energy chasing down wonderboy! After victimizing Palmer, his Ego fled the scene. Speaking to reporters Palmer said, “I think I learned my lesson. I should have left wonderboy in the dust, crushing any hope that he could outrun me.” Shaken by the ordeal, Palmer is resting comfortably at his Nashville home, eating cold pizza and reliving game 7 of the NBA Finals.
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when jessie was little, i made up a little song for her when we were on the swings at the park. to this day, we both remember the words and the tune….
Big trees and pretty flowers,
Green grass and blue skies.
Big trees and pretty flowers,
Green grass and blue skies.
And the birds fly around, fly around, fly around.
The birds fly around,
Like they’re going into town.
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where would i be in life today if it weren’t for my lucky orange running shorts?
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yes, let it be known. the name is de Palma. as in Italian. as in Sicily.
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i had hot pizza for lunch. so it makes complete sense to have cold pizza for dinner. get my logic here?
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cooking chocolate chip pancakes with jessica…
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you know things are bad when your own therapist starts laughing and they can’t stop!
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okay, if you go to a codependent support group, do you get codependent with the codependents??? that would be a train wreck! hey, come to think of it, that would be SO awesome 
