the day i grew sick of “God”
Jim April 22nd, 2008
i vividly remember the day i became nauseated by philosophizing, theologizing, and debating about “God.” it was like truth was a hobby, and i was satisfied with couching God in more progressive and enlightening concepts and understandings. but then it was like the whole thing grew ice cold to me, and i became thoroughly uninterested in continuing down that path. what grew instead was a great desire to simply live and be truth. this is what compels me now, and how i have come to understand my relationship with Jesus Christ. Christ’s life becomes my life…the two become one.
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Jim:
The two are one for sure. I a recent sermon at our church the Pastor explained the differeces between adaptation and metamorphisis of change. It is by the hand of God upon us that this happens. His Life is the one we should choose. I lived way too much of my life not making the correct choice and the results where disaster. At times I choose to still do this and it hurts. God is with me through it and also with you.
LOVE LIKE HIM,
G.B.U.,
Michael.
“truth was like a hobby” – i don’t like that anymore either. it’s a growth stage that we need to go through. and then we get through it, and knowing what’s true doesn’t matter as much as knowing God himself. the hard part for me is continuing to relate effectively to people who are still wanting to debate it. i’m not interested, but yet i see something in the person that makes me want to engage with them on some level. it’s hard to engage without entering back into the debate, you know?
Jim
Couldnt be a more appropriate post for how im feeling right now. Except the only truth Im at is that I need a nice frosty pint. Thanks for the words. Maybe theres hope for me lol.
For many years I wanted more to be right in what I believed and in my specific flavour of church / religion, than anything else. The rules were more important than the reason for the rules – Jesus came to throw out all of that and gave us reason to believe – to believe in something much deeper than a bunch of rules, but rather a person. At times I revert back to the old way of believing in the ‘rules’, and then I recall, “He came to take me beyond that… into freedom!”
Yeah, I think I’m nearing the end of that “truth as a hobby” phase. A lot of the “big questions” now get a big “So what?” from me. Whenever anyone wants to debate doctrine, that is the first test it must pass. “What difference does it make to my life?”. I was on a board the other day and a guy outlines (6) “important” doctrines. As soon as I saw the word “doctrine” in his post, my eyes began to glaze over. I glance over his list, applied the “so what?” test to each one- then I went on to the next post. None of them passed my test.
Peace,
Brian
Boy, do I know what you mean. I’m at such a strange place in my journey. I literally don’t know anything anymore! I’ve grown up in the church and been the strongest christian I know how to be. But for the last 4 years I’ve just been seeking God and God alone. The strange thing is, the more I seek Him, the bigger and broader He becomes, and now I feel like I have nothing of Him to hold onto anymore except that He is love and He loves me. But where does that leave Jesus? Is He really the son of God? Sounds blasphemous, but I just don’t know anymore. God is just so big now. It feels like a simple name isn’t all it’s about anymore. The good thing is, it takes away all judgement about any individual or religion. The bad news is, it leaves me wondering whether or not I’m going to hell because I’m doubting whether there is only one path to God through the name of Jesus Christ. It’s a pretty horrible thing to feel. Just about the only thing I do know is that my heart is honestly seeking truth.
Ditto! I have noticed that whenever I seek some clarity on a bible verse, I can go online and get a zillion different interpretations (all of them feeling 100% correct, of course). You come to realize that no one has all the answers.
Cyndi, I think the Jesus-God connection is another one of those things that has a zillion interpretations. At this point, I feel the Bible clearly says you go through Jesus as the one path….but if Jesus is God, than all it really means is you can only be saved through the one true God. Could that be a possible meaning?
I know what you mean, also, about feeling blasphemous in having doubts, but I think God would much rather we have doubts and be seeking the truth than not giving it any thought at all.